Mi-e dor..(I Miss you in Romanian..^.^)

I miss you when something really good happens,

because you are the first person I want to share it with.

I miss you when something is troubling me,

because you are the one understands who me so well that sometime I felt like you read my mind.

I miss you when I laugh and cry

because i know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear.

I miss you when we argue and fight,

because you are the one who always try to embrace me back.

I miss you all the time, but I miss you most when i lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other;

for those were some of the best times of my life .

Pain, another part of being Alive..

The last few days and nights was hell for me. Out of so many trouble and problems i can get myself into...

I got myself stuck in a quicksand..

Ya, a giant quicksand.,

the more i struggle, the deeper I'm sinking..

Can't seems to fight the giant sucking force..

But, when i try gently to break myself free from the dirt, I can't seems to climb out of it.

There's nothing I can grab on to, or reach out to...

But, even if there's a tree branch nearby..i fear of grabbing it..

Afraid that if i try...I would be suck in so deep that I can't breathe...

So exhausting..

The pain is SO unbearable..

Don't worry..It's just a metaphor .. Ya..to me, the hard times i was going through was something like dat la..

Don't know how to describe..

I really regret what I had done earlier..that bring me to face the horrible consequences. But what had done is done, You can't undo it. No point crying over spill milk rite? But, i cry like hell.

But, i really want to thank my dear so much...for being with me every second.. Without him, I don't think i will be able to climb out of it. I love you so much dear.

Thanks for your support, your presence beside me meant SO SO much to me.

Now, I know the one who truly cares for you, are the ones who will not abandon you at time of hardship.

One who truly care and love you, will try so hard to ease the pain you suffer that he willing to share the pain.

So that you don't feel alone.

You make me believe there's hope.

Hope to climb out...

With you beside me, no matter how painful..

I know, the pain that I'm going through tells me that I'm not DEAD.

I know I'm still alive and not alone.

Hope is what you have gave me to pull through.

Thank you so much for being here with me always. I love you.

Home...Kuching...Home Again

Bonjour again...!!

For the past 2 weeks or so...Been to no where other than staying at home and of course, the recent trip...to KUCHING,SARAWAK!!

Special thanks to our 'tour leader'-Laksamana Cheng Xiang Lin for arranging and planning the trip for the rest of us. It was an Amazing trip with awesome people...!!

This 5days4night trip was kinda tiring but really worth it, coz I had lots of fun at all the cool places like the caves and jungle.. Tanned my skin again...now even my mom says i look more like an indian gurl..haha!! But no worries, it will get back to the original colour again...i Hope..=.=

Our awesome tour guide- Mr.Peter, but we all called him 'uncle' only, sound more friendly ma..hehe. Btw, he's just so nice you know. There's one night when all the others in the gang went to have their dinner at some taiwan and hong kong restaurant which didn't serve any vegetarian food(durga is vegetarian), and their menu is like filled with all the weird stuff..(pig intestine,pig legs...) luckily uncle found one vegetarian restaurant for us..and we were like so relieve coz that time, we were all damn hungry le.. And you know what, uncle joined us for dinner!! We chit-chat through out the meal..he told us about his family and asked us stuff and all. It was nice talking to him. He is so fatherly like.

We all thought he's age was 50 something, but apparently, he's already in hos 60s!! And he look so fit and strong for his age you know!! Salute uncle man! One of the Awesome people I've ever met!!


Great trip, learnt Alot bout the Cat-City, the Sarawak native's people..Melanau, Hulu, Iban, Bidayuh...enjoyed the jungle-trekking and the boat ride to the beach before entering bako national park.

Well, now life back to normal routine... have to start key in data for research ady.. haiz...don't really feel like starting it soon..wait la..want to relax and enjoy this stress free holidays as much as possible.^.^

Thanks to my dear's story telling about Lord of the rings..sounds interesting though..hahaa..so I'm going to start marathon the 3 series of that movie...


Ok people...au revoir!!

At the beach of bako national park, more pics in FB!!